20's

This morning I wrote a piece for an online magazine about an photo exhibition. The photographer captured the adolescent identity ‘a period of life when everything is experienced with an intensity that adults will never feel again’. I resonate with this. Over the past months I have wondered why I feel like a drama queen from time to time. In my thinking, writing, words…everything seems so complicated and I feel I’ve lost my spontaneous self. Every item on my to do list either seems to surface questions within me, or a resentment towards starting with something when all I seem to want to do is nothing.

I feel the need to concentrate on good things. Right here, right now. Next month I’ll turn 23, and therefore I am creating a list of 23 things I want to do before I turn 23:

1. create a bohemian home


2. watch Casablanca


3. bake a beautiful delicious pie


4. read a book in one day


5. plan a trip to California


6. burn 22 candles at ones


7. wander around town aimlessly


8. apply for a transfer to another location at work


9. enjoy studying


10. paint a new piece


11. write poetry


12. have a fabulous diner with moi alone


13. turn my bathroom into a place for relaxation


14. visit a museum before I go to work


15. buy new art supplies


16. buy the Saturday newspaper and read it with a mug of steaming hot coffee


17. buy a fabulous new scarf


18. photograph my day


19. sew something. anything.


20. drink a cosmopolitan


21. enjoy a fabulous night out


22. think about how to celebrate my birthday


23. sleep under the stars